My current personal status

This is gonna be one of those posts where i just talk about crap in my life, so if u don't care about me much (no offense taken), just ignore this post entirely.


I have been doing a 6 months internship since October 6th, which should had ended ages ago, but as misfortune would want it, it wont.

A lot happened during this internship, but most note worthy stuff was the drastic impact on my health. The work conditions are just atrocious, i don't wanna get into too much detail otherwise this post could take hours. But as a result of work, i have developed an ulcer and an extremely poor blood circulation in my legs.

In fact, the reason I'm up writing this right now is because i woke up at 4AM because my stomach was in pain. I'm basically waiting for the pain to settle down.

Work is very unrewarding, the bosses are mindless idiots, the workers are unmotivated because no one's been paid since December, myself included (am waiting for 1250 euros now). My internship reports just don't get done cause i just can't find the time or will to do them.

Outside of work, my life feels ruined. Free time is the time i feel I'm allowed to live and not be a mindless slave, but i get home so exhausted that often i don't do anything, and fall asleep early. I get into a cycle where i go to work, come back home and sleep, wake up and repeat with near zero time for me.

These cycles which seem to happen often make me feel dead inside. I miss art the most, i really do... Art is the only thing that i can say i truly like in life. Most people here like cars, soccer and alcohol. None of those things ever appealed to me, it seems like such a bland and sad existence these people have. They don't seem to aspire to anything except get money, don't seem to have any creativity, don't seem to do anything productive with their free time. that kind of life feels empty to me.

However, maybe I'm the one kidding myself, because of the limited free time, the life i wish i had where i could do all the stuff i like after work just isn't possible. For a while, it seemed like it could b possible, and that i could b happy, but each passing day makes me think I'm in denial.

Right now, I'm stressed out, and my ulcer is getting worse. Art is little to none. I wanna b happy, but i can't. There's just no reason, even my best friend seem really depressed. i come home, get online and try to b optimistic and... there's just so much negativity, lifelessness, sadness and lack of interest... it's just not possible for me to be happy right now.

Jimmy's always very very busy, and his life sounds like a huge mess right now, he still gives me kind words and tries to cheer me up when he can. Although college sounds like it's killing him bit by bit, and his incoming exams don't even sound reasonable.

I'm quite worried about Zach, it's the main reason I've been sad. He seems constantly upset for the past month now. I often think he wants to quit drawing because it doesn't make him happy anymore, nothing seems to make him happy in fact, and i just dunno what to do...

When I'd get depressed back in the day, he used to at least try to cheer me up, but now, it's like he's kicking me further down the pit. Probably not intentionally, but, it feels like something's wrong. Maybe I'm the one that makes him unhappy, he seems to have fun when I'm not talking to him, i dunno...

I see Bittenhard doodle really cool stuff and he's been using really nice angles lately and i do mean REALLY nice. I can't help but feel like i wanna doodle something, or get a doodle, with a nice angle like his, my characters feel incredibly neglected since this accursed year started and neither me or anyone else seems to either have the time or will to doodle them. My characters are all i have...

I literally have nothing going for me right now. No one can and/or will cheer me up, life is just both physical and mental pain all day til i get home, and then I'm exhausted and fall asleep.

If u read this post, am sorry it was so long.

Natty Nintendo Girls

Top Left to Right: NES Girl, SNES Girl, N64 Dame
Bottom Left to Right: Gamecube Girl, Wii Girl

Natty Nintendo Girls:

Nintendo has always been kept a clean friendly image for the gaming community and that corporate image is reflected in most of their designs. One cohesive design that I intentionally gave to each of the girls was have each of their hair consist of two upbraided (currently) pigtails. Many argue that Nintendo caters to the non-hardcore gaming group, but in the end Nintendo states that the Console Gal business is that undoubtfully involves profit.

NES Girl
NES Girl is the nostalgia gal for the fans. In Japan she is known as Famicom Girl. Sporting her red orange zapper (sometimes gray variant) and power glove nothing says good o' 8-bit fun like NES Girl. Nintendo conceived her after the Great Crash of 1983 where the Atari Girls 2600 Lass, 5200 Missy, and 7800 Vixen suffered massive hysteria. While everyone was questioning the future of the Console Gals, NES Girl jumped in proved that all was not lost as long as the game was design to be great. To prove her statement she honed her skills and products until they were of high quality. Her standards even extended onto third party supports. To distinguish garbage with good stuff, products that pass her rigorous test got the Nintendo Seal of Quality.

SNES Girl
After some time with NES Girl, Sega answered the Console Gal market with Genesis Girl a 16-bit Gal (whom in turn was competiting with TurboGrafx-16 Lady). Nintendo was sweating in their business suit and followed through with the training of SNES Girl. She turned out to be a huge success and pretty much made Nintendo a well known name. However, unlike Genesis Girl, SNES Girl followed the strict Nintendo Family Friendly Policy that they should be as kid-friendly as possible. Because of this many cross-platform games were toned down for her. Regionally in the North America she is known as SNES Girl but in Japan she has requested as Super Famicom.

N64 Dame
As the Console Gals moved into the 32-bit era Nintendo stood ground that cartridge gaming was the way to go while her rivavls PS1 Lady and Saturn Sanshiko opted for the cheaper CD payment system. It became apparent that Nintendo made a huge mistake about the cartridge thing and N64 Dame suffered for that. However, the N64 Dame did introduce to the gaming community many new designs in which Sony blantely copied such as the "rumble pack" deal and her "analog stick" which was quite a popular feature with those who played with her.

Gamecube Girl
As PS2 Lady and Xbox Amazon dove into the DVD realm Gamecube Girl opted to stick to the cuter mini DVD which meant she could not play standard commercial DVDs, except when wearing her Panasonic Q outfit. However, no matter how hard Gamecube Girl tried she would not be able to reach the fans that N64 Dame lost. Like her previous relatives Gamecube has poor judgement in gaming decisions. Her biggest mistake is claiming that the internet thing was "not for her" and firmly believed that people would not like playing online. Her poor choice and following of N64 Dame's reputation caused her to become the black sheep in the family with the least public appeal in the Console Gal market, but the bright side is that she did not reach to the level of the unmentioned and unacknowledged Virtual Tomboy.

Wii Girl
Currently the Wii is enjoying her ride at the top of the current (2006-2009) Console Gal Battle. Her design emulates many of the older Natty Nintendo Girls and was based on the DS as well. Unlike the other Nintendo Girls, Wii Girl's success has brought on an onslaught of lawsuits. Wii Girl tries hard to be popular and as such emulates many of her Nintendo relatives and some other Consoles Gals. After all, Wii Girl would like you to play.

Ugh, effin' web browsers

Ok, so most of you noticed i reskinned the blog, and between 75 to 90% of you see it as it's meant to look.

However, as it always happens with CSS, it's a huge fucking mess and no 2 browsers seem to interpret it the same way.

After i was done with it, and tested it with Firefox, it was fine. Until i tested other browsers...

I looked at the site with IE, which is being retarded for not knowing the difference between 0 and 1. And then with Opera, which is honestly just making shit up.

If you use any browser other than Firefox, my apologies, I'll try to fix that next time i have time.

"There she is" series by SamBakZa

Many many people are familiar with the 1st flash movie of this series.

It's about how a lil rabbit girl falls in love with a cat boy, and how their society is against inter-species relationships.

The author, SamBakZa, meant the first movie to b the only one originally, but it grew and evolved into this mini series.

Click pic for direct link to the movie page

Part of my interest in this series was from the fact that i also was going for a sort of "taboo love because of society" deal with Tof and Bliss, and this reflected a lot of what i wanted to do. I could never pull it off that well to be honest, so i admire these movies.

I had seen the first and 2nd movie years ago, i was a lil surprised when i happened to browse Newgrounds and by chance look at a link that mentioned the finale of the series. I had not seen 3, 4 and 5.

I must say this is a work of art, there's a plot running along the last 3 movies that gets pretty dark and dramatic, and even though not a single word is spoken through all the movies, this feel well written and produced.

A must see, i highly recomend it to anyone.

Heads up

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Mr. Bastard: Hell's Army 3

In Chess, the Queen, from my observations, is a very, very make-or-break piece. Likewise, the Queen Hellot is much more dangerous than her thin frame would suggest.

Where the Rook focuses mainly on defense, the Queen is much more mobile and offense oriented. At first, she lingers in the rear of the ranks(when and IF they're deployed, anyways), only to dart into the fray without warning, at which point whatever objectives the group was made to do will promptly be completed, usually.

It should be noted that Queens are blindfolded, for no real adequately explained reason. It doesn't seem to hinder them at all, as their bodies contort and react almost instantly to whatever is going on around them. They do, however, seem drawn to commotion, and it's presumed that's why they even bother sending any low-ranked units along with them; to act as fodder.

I'm not exactly sure if I like the Queen's design on a personal level, just because it resembles so many things and makes me look unoriginal(well, moreso than usual). I just wanted it to have a vaguely feminine, deceiving appearance, due to the fact that so much of a Chess game can rest on the Queen's shoulders. I think I pulled it off, but it comes off as some sort of amalgamation of the Heartless(in general), the Dancer Nobodies, Voldo(I picture them moving around like him), and more recently the Witch from Left 4 Dead...I really hate when I get ideas I think are really good and then they're skewed by my experieces...

I am crying

So in California all of those who wish to become teachers have to take a horrendous exam thanks to the No Child Left Behind Act (No thanks to W. Bush's administration). This test is a VERY expensive test and I fear that even though I know my stuff I might fail a good portion of it.

These are the materials which are going to be covered:

Physical Education
Human Development
Visual and Performing Arts
Science
Mathematics
Reading, Language, and Literature
History and Social Science

While some parts I know I can do very easily on seperately (Math, science, arts, P.E.) the combination of it all in one day (12 hour test) is what is going to kill me.


*cries*

Manic Microsoft Mascots

Left: Xbox Amazon
Right: Xbox 360 Barbarian

Microsoft Mascots:

Microsoft is a well known name in the PC realm and after infecting reality in pretty every computer related corner, they set their eyes on injecting their brand into the gaming community. Reception upon their first annoncment was luke warm at best, with a few people who were paid off by Microsoft to claim the girls as the Console Gal killers each time. While they struggle in Japan (Japanese seems to not like foreigners), they have recieved a good hold in the American market. Europeans plus the Australian's reception is better than that of the Asian market.

Xbox Amazon
When she was found in the amazon headquarters of Microsoft it was big news to the world. Now Microsoft wanted a set loose their creation to the world. Learning mostly from working with Sega on the Dreamcast Kunoichi's training core program, Microsoft figured that everyone would just ditch the remaining players PS2 Lady and Gamecube Girl in favor for their more powerful machine. While Xbox Amazon did adequately in North America, she was pretty much not looked at everywhere else in the world. Striving to stay alive she sometimes requests Master Chief for support. Xbox Amazon's personality has a tough outer shell and may seem aggressive at times, but those who love to hunt aliens have proclaimed her to be one of the best to have on the team.

Xbox 360 Barbarian
Learning from their first gal, Microsoft went back to the drawing board to revamp and release the next "most powerful" Gal on the Console Gal business. They pretty much upgraded everything Xbox Amazon had, decided to slim her down, change their color, release 4 different variations of her, and decided to release her a couple of months prior to the arrival of Wii Girl and PS3 Lady. Microsoft emphasize a lot on her online abilities and wireless features, but as consumers found out she carried two touches to her: A green ring of life and the dreaded red ring of death.